im a sociopath

hello.

i realise that something is wrong with me.

im no longer only an introvert - im becoming autistic. which is a hell of a condition to get as a teenager. i can feel myself drifting away from the outside world and drawing closer to a world of my own. i dont talk to people as much as before.

everytime i log on to msn messenger, i dont have the intention to chat with people, even when their nicks suggest that they totally welcome a chat.

but then, looking at it again, i discover that this only applies to girls, coz i still keep in touch with the boys i know - ben, zhirong, kaisheng, kwok hong, john, etc.

so what is wrong? am i turning *gulps* g...ay...?

rubbish.

avoiding girls just means you're shy. c'mon dude, you've had spent most of your secondary school life in a boys' school, and now this new environment is just a little hard for you to adapt to. it's okay. if you can't approach girls, then just forget about it. the time is not ripe anyway. so yeah and erm, just make sure you have a well-balanced social circle. and all the crap la...

heh, that's easy for you to say, but it's much harder for it to be put into practice.

but for now, im really kinda confused. what's really wrong with me? or is there even anything wrong? is this just my imagination going astray?

somebody please give me answers...